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So...this is a blog? Yay blogs! Blog. I like that word. BLOG. It's snowing! Or as they say en francais, il fait neige. Oh my. Truro is not a very happening place. I am getting very frusturated with it right now, but I'm also not so sure if Toronto is the place I want to be either right now. It just doesn't seem like it suits me that much. I mean, I know it's big and multicultural, but I don't think it has much personality. It seems very sterile. I guess I have a lot of things to figure out over the break. I am not really looking forward to this break, to be honest. I think it's going to be filled with lots of awkwardness and uncomfortable moments. It's all going to start on Friday. I'm going to flip. Ugh. I am such an idiot about things. I have discovered that I am so emotional. Too emotional. I just go completely off the deep end and I wish I didn't. It's way too extreme. I always say things that I don't really mean and then I feel bad and want to take them back, even though it's not that easy, which is frusturating. I just ruin good things.

I will never ever do another long distance relationship. Worst things ever. I don't think there is really such a thing as a long distance relationship, because how can you have a relationship with a person you never see? I think you need to have direct contact in order to have a relationship. Well, a romantic relationship anyway. It's so hard to communicate and understand the person when you can't look them in the eye and really see what they are feeling. Words are not enough. If you're not in eachother's lives at all, it's so hard to relate to that person. You have to be able to experience at least a little bit of what that person is experiencing, or else there is no way you can relate to them at all. There is zero connection. I'm totally repeating myself right now, but it's just such crap. It ruins everything. And I mean everything. It makes me really sad, actually. It's like, no matter what you feel for a certain person, if they are gone and you don't see them for a certain length of time, you lose something. I don't know what that something is, but either way it's not there anymore. And I'm not sure you can ever really get it back. Oh well, we'll see.