Something haunts my dreams.

I just had a dream that I got accepted to NSCAD.

Are dreams the opposite of what really is supposed to happen?

Banana Bran Muffin.

This weekend was hilarious. Friday was a great day. It was so nice and sunny and warm. I went for a run because I wasn't feeling so great and it usually makes me feel better. I ran to the bridge on east prince street and when I got to the middle, I just sort of stopped and looked. I sat down and I was just thinking about things. I do that a lot lately when I run.
I went swimming with Yeha and Coco. We always have the funniest conversations. Like when we were driving to the pool we were discussing if we would eat something gross if it was in the shape of a muffin. Because muffins are cute. Then when we were swimming, Coco was doing these like pull up things on the ladder at the side of the pool and then Yeha and I joined her and Yeha said it was good, but it looked like we were having sex on the side of the pool. Then we were discussing what sort of face people make when they are having sex. Coco said hers would probably be a shocked "what are you doing?!" sort of face. Oh, Coco.
Then we went to Ainslie's, then to the movies minus Coco but plus Kathbean. We saw V for Vendetta, which is a stellar movie that I would recommend to everyone and I would definitely see it again.
Last night Devin and I went to Nadine's with the Truro Hose. We shared some laughs, shared some cake. A highlight of the night was the look on Devin's face when Jill Guinan sprayed him in the neck with a can of compressed air then told him it was gas. Holy psych for dpeck.
Nadine is the best hostess. I love my little Lammy and finger light.
Next weekend is going to be even better.

6 days.

I like the Like.

Fuck that, I'm starting an all-girl indie rock band.

I like my Blogspot.

So, I have decided (for now), that I am going to make movies.
I just feel like, instead of being critical of all the things I watch, I should just make them myself so I can actually legitimately criticize these things instead of being one of those movie geeks (erm...) who just sits there and thinks they can do better when in reality they have no idea if they can or not because they haven't gotten off of their asses and tried for themselves.


More to come.

Alex + Devin = love.

Clear blue.

Two entries in one day, but today I went for a run in the park, and I got up around the reservoir, and it started snowing. You know, that really soft snow that just sort of floats in the air around you. I stopped running and just stopped and looked. I started to walk, slowly, in the snow, just watching it fall all around me. I looked at the trees, the ground, the lake, the sky, the snow. Everything fits together so beautifully.

There is beauty in everything.

"Turn left. No, your other left. LEFT!"

Well...that week went...quickly. It was full of complete and utter randomness.

Friday - Hanging out with Isaac, Danielle and Jeska; Smitty's with Danielle; cafgay with Isaac, Danielle, Jeska, Devin; sleepover with Devin.
Saturday - Nothing; watching japanese horror movies with Karlee.
Sunday - More nothing; Bronwyn's; Devin's.
Monday - Devin's; hanging out with Isaac while Devin got a haircut and teeth cleaning; hanging out with Devin again; working on NSCAD application.
Tuesday - Halifax; applying to NSCAD; cafgay/Pride and Prejudice with Danielle.
Wednesday - Still more nothing; Steve Chase's bonfire with Myrthin and Teri.
Thursday - Lying around with Devin; The Hills Have Eyes with Myrthin and Dave; unintentional sleepover with Devin.
Friday - Even more nothing; Isaac's with Jeska, Devin and Dave.
Saturday - Nothing; all night video games with Devin, Dave and Myrthin.
Also during this week, I cut off all my hair, lost and found my ipod and discovered a new meaning for the term "taking things too far".
I mean, because obviously everyone cares what I did on my March Break. Some people went to Europe or the Carribean, but no. Not Alex.
And now I'm off to play more video games.

She's a go go girl in a go go world.

I can't find my fucking ipod. I also cannot stand my mother right now. Jesus Christ, I just can't even look at her. I don't know why, she just makes me want to scream. It's like, she didn't even do anything, but her very existence is the most annoying factor in my life at this moment. I have to live on my own as soon as possible. I'm going to kill someone/something.
I'm taking my fucking portfolio for NSCAD in tomorrow. I'm a fucking ball of fucking stress right now. Add losing my ipod, and other things, and I'm near ready to explode.
Devin and I went to Bronwyn's last night. We left early because it was boring and neither of us were in the party mood. Isaac and Dave started crying because they wanted to kiss Devin, but he was leaving. I slept over at...wait, why the fuck am I telling you this, when you already know everything because you were there literally the entire time?
So today when I hung out with Isaac we went to Wendy's to get some fatty grease face obese food. I had fries. Then I thought I could find a large envelope and a burnable cd at Staples, so we went there, but they didn't sell individual things, "This isn't Office Depot, Alex." What the fuck does that even mean, Isaac? What is Office Depot? What the fuck is a Gola? So anyway, we played on this giant widescreen computer. Isaac went on msn and when he talked to people he was like - I can't talk to you, I'm on a computer at Staples. Ahahahahaha. So funny.
The Tiny One works at Staples. I was like - Since when do they hire toddlers? She is the smallest person on the planet. Why is she so small? I would not want to be that small. I would wear elevator shoes and stuff my (boxed) bra (and briefs) so people would not know I was so small. But I suppose they would also think I was a douche. Oh well, win some and lose some.
So now I am going to get back to work.
Jesus, I need a cigarette. Well, I mean, if I smoked, I'm sure I would need a cigarette.




{broken plates - magneta lane}

20 ways to see the world.

Oh my. How much more highschool can I stomach? It's been almost three years, I Don't know how I havE not jumped off the top of a Very large building. I'm so tIred of Nearly everyone. I know, it'S a really nice thing to sAy. I Can't help the way I feel, everyone jUst bugs me righT now and I guess all I can do is put up with it and dEal.
Next week is March Break and right now I feel like I want to hide in my room under the covers and not talk to anyone for the entire week. Be a hermit. Humm. That would be nice. Maybe have the occassional SELECT visitor, but other than that, no one! I can't wait until next year when I don't have to walk through the halls of CEC and look at all of the people I completely despise every single day.
I need out of Truro. It's not a want anymore, it's something I have to do in order to live happily.
I know what you're thinking, "Alex, you are an inconsiderate, selfish, bitter little bitch who does not deserve what she has." I'm just in a bad mood.
On a lighter note,
I GOT HIRED TO WORK AT BIG COVE FOR THE WHOLE SUMMER !